So, today is officially day 3 of no smoking and yesterday had to be the most difficult for me. I wanted to pop peoples heads off just for blinking. I was extremely irritable yesterday and found myself thinking about smoking more often than I was breathing! I went to work for a few hours, at the bar, BIG mistake cuz everyone smokes! I only lasted about 2 hours and I had to head out. I chewed through an entire pack of gum, sucked 2 tootsie pops, finished off a bag of peppermint bark and gnawed through some straws while driving. Thus far that proves to be the largest challenge...driving. Apparently that is when I smoked most! UGH!!!!
On a good note, I didn't smell and I didn't eat everything in sight. I did leave my car at home so that I couldn't jump in and drive to the cigarette store, yes..it is now called that! That was a brilliant idea on my part otherwise, I believe I would have caved. Thankfully, there is no football today which means no beer which means no temptation to smoke! Yay!!!
I think to stay busy I foresee many projects in my future...at least for a few weeks ;)
I do have to say that the worst part about yesterday was towards the end of the evening. My cheese steak place was closed, I had no beer, and I wasn't smoking. Then, after 2 benadryls...I couldn't fall asleep which is all I wanted to do...put that evil day to rest! Today will be better than yesterday and tomorrow will be better than today!
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
November 18, 2010 Day 1
The Great American Smokeout
So, last night per my request, my boyfriend threw out any cigarettes I had not smoked before I awoke this morning. He even emptied the ashtray on the porch! Damn it! I couldn't even lick one or smell it, not even an empty pack to look at! I guess I really am going to attempt this....quitting smoking. I have been smoking for twenty-something years and have only quit one time before....1993/1994 during my pregnancy. However am I going to do this?
I went online yesterday and found some pointers from all over the place really, not just one site, and I compiled my list to just a few. They are: the FREE smoking cessation hotline (which I have already utilized during my lunch break), reviewing past quitting experiences (which I just told you was in 93/94), anticipating challenges...really? Who in their right mind wants to anticipate a challenge on a daaily basis when quitting smoking? (I really wish I could just slip into a coma until the urge to smoke is gone), limit alcohol..uh huh..right!, ask for help..(I didn't ask per se as much as I warned my friends and family of what I was doing!) My boss told me to take the next 3 months off and my family plans on sleeping for quite some time! Aren't they lovely? There are 2 that I thought were very helpful pointers though: reduce stress (well, that's what my cigarettes did!) and reward myself for quitting! (you can only imagine how long this list is getting!)
So, I am currently on my 10th waking hour of my first quit day and I am relatively in a good mood considering. I did want to wrestle a cigarette out of a man's mouth at the red light at lunch but I didn't! I did purchase an obscene amount of peppermint bark and dark chocolate and because of this, I did ready up the treadmill!
Stay tuned for I am sure tomorrow will hold even more surprises and chocolate shame for me!
So, last night per my request, my boyfriend threw out any cigarettes I had not smoked before I awoke this morning. He even emptied the ashtray on the porch! Damn it! I couldn't even lick one or smell it, not even an empty pack to look at! I guess I really am going to attempt this....quitting smoking. I have been smoking for twenty-something years and have only quit one time before....1993/1994 during my pregnancy. However am I going to do this?
I went online yesterday and found some pointers from all over the place really, not just one site, and I compiled my list to just a few. They are: the FREE smoking cessation hotline (which I have already utilized during my lunch break), reviewing past quitting experiences (which I just told you was in 93/94), anticipating challenges...really? Who in their right mind wants to anticipate a challenge on a daaily basis when quitting smoking? (I really wish I could just slip into a coma until the urge to smoke is gone), limit alcohol..uh huh..right!, ask for help..(I didn't ask per se as much as I warned my friends and family of what I was doing!) My boss told me to take the next 3 months off and my family plans on sleeping for quite some time! Aren't they lovely? There are 2 that I thought were very helpful pointers though: reduce stress (well, that's what my cigarettes did!) and reward myself for quitting! (you can only imagine how long this list is getting!)
So, I am currently on my 10th waking hour of my first quit day and I am relatively in a good mood considering. I did want to wrestle a cigarette out of a man's mouth at the red light at lunch but I didn't! I did purchase an obscene amount of peppermint bark and dark chocolate and because of this, I did ready up the treadmill!
Stay tuned for I am sure tomorrow will hold even more surprises and chocolate shame for me!
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